Sometimes I just curse this world.. I’ve realized that I was beginning to let the world take control again. The everyday worry, fears, and daunting task lists grow bigger and bigger each day and sometimes it can overwhelm… I have realized that I have been living “out of focus” for a little while. I am reminded:
6 Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.
I have been focusing on my
Priority lists instead of the list that God gave me. I have focused on the piles of
bills on my table, the loads on laundry to do, the daunting task of keeping up with ‘life as usual’. Then I am reminded:
1 Peter 2:9
But you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people belonging to God, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light.
There is no “life as usual” anymore. I have been called away from worldly worries to focus on a heavenly mission – a bigger priority.
My new list: Focus on what God told you to focus on!
So it took me a little while to realize this but I had my breakthrough moment – rather, my break away moment. I broke away from a world that can’t hold me, a few lists that won’t mold me, and a devil that can’t hold me.
My path is clear. I see it again clearly Lord. Lord I need your help every single day. Guide me back to that straight line to walk with you. The line that is outside all worry and fear. I have come back again to focus on you and what you know is the highest priorities. You told me what’s important, and your priority list is my highest honor.
Keep me in focus Lord. My prayer today: soften my heart, peel back the layers of my existence, and show me the clarity of your will. Amen.
We should all pray that prayer today.
James 4:8 ESV
Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
“As you do not know the path of the wind, or how the body is formed in a mother’s womb, so you cannot understand the work of God, the Maker of all things.”
We humans place a lot of stock in our own reasoning and understanding. We think that because we don’t “see” it, or can’t “imagine” it, that the probability is non-existent. I’ve learned a lot of things recently. One of those things is never doubt God or his promises to you, no matter how unworldly, or ridiculous they may seem.
I am completely different than I was. My life is completely different than it was just one year ago.
Sometimes, I just sit and think about where I was in life, who I was in life, and I see why God decided to knock me off my high horse and take me off the road to mediocrity. I write this blog post this morning with a thankful, indebted heart.
This past year has proven to me that there is something bigger and better, higher and greater than I had ever expected. I have seemingly always believed in God. As a child, I would talk to him, pray to him, ask him things. Now, looking back – I believe he was answering me – I just didn’t realize it then. I was headed in the wrong direction as an adult. I didn’t see it because I was so blinded by the business of life and all the things the world had on it’s shelf for me. Now, I crave the peace and quiet. I would rather sit alone in a coffee shop and be at peace inside, watching the world pass by in their daily routes in a tizzy. I was there. I am much calmer now. Much more sure of what life will be, and what God wants from me.
I tried to lean on my own understanding for years. I was so beat down in my circumstances and tied that I never even tried to escape them. I never even prayed for escape. I prayed for love.
‘For I know the plans that I have for you,’ declares the LORD, ‘plans for welfare and not for calamity to give you a future and a hope.
Love came to me. However, not in the form I had imagined it would. Actually, far from what my prayers intended. Nonetheless, my life was filled with love, and my cup overflowed. I do not claim to undestand. In fact, I still don’t understand what has happened to my life, or the “me” that used to live in it. I no longer desire this world or the things of it – it all seems so superficial, and dim compared to what I have known and seen.
Be careful what you pray for.
I often think that I don’t recognize anything about my life anymore. But I find a peace and happiness in knowing that I am firmly placed in God’s hand. For the first time in my life, I stopped running away from my will, my duty, my path. I fought God, but ultimately he won. Now I am ashamed to think that I even put up the fight. I will never understand God’s love fully. I can’t wrap my human brain around his mercy, forgiveness, and faithfulness. However, I do know that he has given me all those things.
It is well with my soul.
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
for it is God who is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure.
And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what the will of God is, that which is good and acceptable and perfect.
and He who searches the hearts knows what the mind of the Spirit is, because He intercedes for the saints according to the will of God.
And your ears will hear a word behind you, “This is the way, walk in it,” whenever you turn to the right or to the left.
At some point, you guys are going to start thinking I’m making these stories up. However I warn you before I go any further – these are real. Tonight another really amazing thing happened to me and I can’t wait to share it!
Yesterday I had an hour to kill in between appointments so I decided to take a stroll in a department store browsing. I had been looking for a wedding dress for months, and not just any dress would do. LET ME TAKE A MINUTE TO EXPLAIN WHY
Remember I mentioned the visions I had been seeing? One of which was my wedding. My soon-to-be had seen the exact same vision, however where I only saw him, he only saw me. He explained the dress he saw to a very specific detail, he drew that dress on a napkin for me a couple months ago, and I have been obsessed with finding it every since. I knew it existed somewhere because God showed it to him, and it was burned so vividly in his mind.
I snapped a picture of a dress I saw at this department store and picture messaged him on his cell phone. I continued looking, because I didn’t think it was quite the right dress. He got back to me 30 minutes later and said “thats it” in caps. After I got the text message my phone blew up with phone calls from him. Well… I had already left the store. Matter of fact, I was 10 mintutes away so I popped a U-turn in the street and went back to get that dress (which they only had one of by the way.)
I pulled in, ran into the store like a mad-woman and went to the spot I found it. GONE! I panicked. I walked every isle thinking someone put it down somewhere else (after all it had only been 30 mins!) I even went so far as to see if anyone else was holding my dress – and I had decided I was going to buy them out to have that dress! I peeled every dress one-by-one until I was sure that it was gone. I asked every person on the floor about that dress and insisted they check in the stockroom, because I wasn’t leaving without that dress! Unfortunately, the dress was, in fact, gone – with no others to replace it.
I WAS DISHEARTENED. I made the phone call, and told him..
That night he got home from work and insisted we go back to the store. I insisted that I didn’t want to go back because I knew it wasn’t there- nor was there anymore coming. He was adament. So I digressed and went along preparing for yet another disappointment.
We got to the parking lot, and he prayed. In his prayer he said “Let us find the right dress, the one you showed me, and put it in my hand Lord, Amen”. I looked over at him, and smirked. We walked in. We went to the dresses.
BAM! There was that dress. Not just one, but four of them in each size.
I had an Oh my God! moment just then. My eyes were the size of golf balls when I said “those dresses were NOT there, I checked!”
I grabbed the dresses, rushed to the fitting room, and tried it on. I found one that fit, walked out, and I knew. His face said it all. After 10 minutes he uttered “That’s it!”
So I believe that dress was meant to be. He saw it, God provided it. If I had found it earlier in the day, it wouldn’t have been this great testimony to what God can do with a little faith and prayer. I now own the wedding dress that my hubby saw in his vision months back. How amazing is that story?! It is almost too surreal to believe. However, if God is for us who can stand against us?
I was thinking this morning about Easter, and rightfully so, for as a Christian how can you not? As with everything in this world, many people have turned Easter into a “Bunny and Eggs” holiday. Well, I still celebrate with Jesus, but I also incorporate the bunny and eggs. Do you remember as a child hunting tirelessly for that golden egg? You knew that there would be a great payoff when you found it! $5, $10 or even $20 might be inside, and you wanted it!(I always did anyway!) I want you to think about the Easter Eggs from Heaven today, as you celebrate this holiday with your families in hunting for that golden egg.
I have breathe and life in this egg
I have gifts of the spirit in this egg
I have God’s will and blessings in this egg
I have everlasting life, and a price that was fully paid in this golden egg.
HAPPY EASTER EVERYBODY!
For those of you who don’t know what Brookshires is – it is a grocery chain here in Texas, like a Publix, Winn Dixie, or Food Lion would be. The Blog You Rang, God? reminded me about this story that has yet to be told. I used to believe that God only showed up on Sundays. I thought you could only touch God through being in church. Boy, was I mistaken.
One evening I went to Brookshires to pick up three simple items: Pepsi, Advil, Little Debbie snack cakes. My trip inside wasn’t going to take that long, so I didnt even bother getting a cart. I picked up item #1, gathered item #2, but when I got to isle 10 to pick up item #3… my knees buckled. I was with my boyfriend at the time, and he laughed at me as my legs wiggled beneath me and said I must’ve been so blown away by him my knees buckled. I laughed, and said “No buddy, but I know what this feeling is and I must get out of this store!” I grabbed my item, rushed to the check out, and went straight to the car. There I felt the wind of the spirit come over me and I began to shake uncontrollably.
Now in retrospect this part of the story is funny, but then it was just wild… He walks out to the car and sees me shaking like a leaf and almost convulsing in the driver seat (I was parked..btw, you can’t drive while in a full on holy ghost fit). Anyways, he was ready to call 911 and hospitalize me. Poor thing, he didn’t understand. To be honest, I can’t say that I did either. I just told him to go away, that God and I had some business to tend to. Needless to say he didn’t leave so what ended up happening was this….
I got the holy ghost, touched his hand, then he got the holy ghost. So here we both are, in the middle of Brookshires parking lot, fully lit, cars driving by, security camera fixed on us.. and I am convulsing inside the car, he is shaking outside the drivers side door, and we are both looking mighty silly looking like clucking chickens.
He ended up falling out on the concrete before God let go of him. Once that happened, I got the spirit of laughter, and couldn’t quit. I laughed, and laughed, and laughed..Oh, It was quite a sight to see. When I die, I’m gonna ask for God to replay that for me. I think I will get a kick out of that.
What I didn’t know, was he had never experienced the holy ghost before. He also never spoke in tongues. Well, those two things changed that night. God is definitely real. Tongues is real. Holy laughter is real. God will show up on Sunday in church, and on a Monday in a grocery store.
Oh what a life!
Whether it is written or verbal, God’s word never lies.
I was thinking about something that was told to me in a church service a few months back. I visited a church that had a so-called “prophet” visit. This prophet had a word for me during that service. Granted, I am initially leery about these types of people, I sensed a sincerity in this one. (Mainly because she wasn’t a FOR PROFIT PROPHET, and you don’t find many of those.) Anyways, I had been seeing visions for several months prior to actually coming in contact with her at that service. She walked right up to me and said these words:
“These things you are seeing, they are just the smoke compared to a burning fire that is behind it. You will be used to preach to nations.”
I took her words at face value, said thank you, and went on my merry way. I immediately got back into my car, wrote her words in my journal I had been keeping and went on. I thought about how silly that woman was! Thinking I would preach to nations..Ha! Does she even know she was telling that to a girl who has been to a total of 4 states?! (none of which are above the Mason Dixon line by the way). Plus I don’t even own a passport to go anywhere! ME?! I AM GOING TO PREACH TO NATIONS??! Ha.. Maybe she was a little off her rocker. Maybe her wires got crossed that day…….
This weekend it hit me like a ton of bricks..
OMG! I AM PREACHING TO NATIONS!
Three months after I met that prophet, I got a word to “write”. Not sure what I was supposed to write about, I just started blabbering away, and thought I would try my hand at blogging. Needless to say, here I am now and I seem to have developed a small following. However small, my blog has allowed me to reach nations. NATIONS! Hear that? It’s God saying I TOLD YOU SO. Matthew 19:26 Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Yes…All things ARE possible. This blog has followers from Asia, Saudi, Iran, China, Cuba…Just to name a few. I am humbled as I sit here in amazement looking at what God did. He gave me a message, and delivered the truth after my obedience of following through.
Looking back……..Has God ever asked me to do anything that was status quo? He never called me to act sanctimoniously. No, he asks the incredible, the unheard of, the unimaginable, and often times insane. What my earth-bound body perceives as crazy, God deems achievable, attainable, and conquerable.
Philippians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me.
So proud to see the knowledge and beauty that God has blessed her with!
Check out this video on YouTube:
God moves through her. what a testimony! beautiful young lady!
I love you lord for what you do for me. I love you lord for what I am to you. I love you Lord, those days you carry me. I love you lord. some days without you I dont know where I would be.
When I think about all the times and things I did said. Went after what I wanted so relentlessly. Brings me down to nothing when I think about how selfish Ive been. How selfish Ive been.
So you changed me. Rearranged me. made me better today. I can love you and not love me for all that I was consumed. Lord I love you because you loved me. And you showed me how to be. The love you found and gave to me. My heart was so buried. Until you showed me your way. That I could give love away. And be so happy. Lord Ill be so happy. yeah, to give my love away. Its not in taking day by day. Its in the giving love away. you make me straight.
I just wanna give my love away. Jesus. Give my love away. I thank you lord in heaven today. That you would give me the love that I would love to give away.
Jesus Im gonna give it away.
This heart of stone it turned to gold. It was rediscovered and recovered by Jesus. Im gonna give it away. You made my heart to love. YOu made my heart to love people. Give love, be love, now I know it. Im gonna show it. Ive gonna give love, Im not gonna take it. Im gonna give love, oh yea. My reason for being is to love humanity. I know I can just love. I dont see so color, I dont see no dirt. I dont see nothing but your heart and soul and spirit. I love you for you. Jesus put it in me to love, So I will love. No judgement on you. No judgement from me. Because God himself doesnt judge until your days are done. he told me so, so who am I today, to tell you what your doing wrong. Im nothing. Im nothing. Im no one without you Jesus. I know my place – behind you.