I don’t think a lot of people will understand what I’ve been through in the last year so, and I don’t rightfully expect them to. See, God has done a lot for me. He pulled the blinders off, he ripped me apart from my “self” and I am so thankful and greatful that he broke my heart so deeply that my perspective changed. That my world changed. I started to see the people in my life differently. I saw who my true friends were. I began to see myself at a distance. How self-centered and worldly I had become. He showed me what he offered and I realize that the world wasn’t enough for me. I was honestly ashamed of who I had become…..
I was self-centered and egotistical. I was self-righteous and unsympathetic. I was mean, crude, and even heartless in some instances. If I went back six months I would not recognize myself and that’s something only God could’ve done. I wanted what I wanted and that was it. No discussions, I didn’t need any permission, it was my life.
BUT…………….. I couldn’t be more grateful and thankful that God took that away from me. Once I made the decision to live for him from this point forward, and honestly made it, and meant it.. things changed.
I had begun saying “God whatever you want and I meant whatever you want, to take it- leave it- give it- hide it- break it- shake it- whatever you need- I’m there.”
My life changed, my heart changed, my focus changed, and I’ve been living in the plethora of what God wants to give me and the overflow that they talk about- I am just now seeing it my life. I can’t wait for tomorrow! I’m literally at the point my life that I can’t wait for what’s next.
Have a great week everyone!