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Last night I had a wow moment…………….

I thought I was done with the breaking! I thought I had been dealt with already! I thought all the corners of my old life had been cleaned up! Then wham! Wow….

It turns out that the process continues. I guess even good fruit gets bruised. Shallow wounds. They too have to heal slowly. I thought it was all behind me. I thought I let everything go. Apparently there will always be little things that come up and nag aloud until you deal with them.

I realized last night that God wants it all. Even the things that are the ugliest to you – God knows. The things that are the smallest little nothings to us, God knows. He wants it all.

Things that I had forgotten about…..hmm….It’s funny how with a renewed heart how it really rears its ugly little face again. Apparently God knew that there was something I was holding on to and didn’t even know it. That bruised fruit that He was watching rot. That one single thing in my life that was inadvertently holding me back. Well last night I let go of it. I threw it away. Actually, I threw it at God and let him deal with it. I don’t want anything that would stop me from moving forward.

The bruised fruit – God will take it. Anything that you can give, anything left standing in your way of becoming more Christlike – Give it away. I didn’t even know I had not given it away. Though, God has a way of hovering and micro-managing so to speak, until you deal with what’s on your heart. After all, he made your heart and he knows even the slightest transgressions against yourself or him. Sometimes only he can clean up the ugly mess you made of your heart.

I guess this is how it will be from now on. There really never is a “done” in your spiritual journey. You are never a completed task to God. I have always been that person to look at due dates and deadlines and focus on the finality of the project. How do I get a project without a deadline? How am I supposed to keep working on something that will never complete? Day by day is the answer. Keep growing, keep deepening the relationship. Keep working on yourself. You can only be better tomorrow than you are today.

I pray you deliver your bruised fruit to God today.

Cherish

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La La Land…..or so I’ve heard it called. Do you know that place? Ever set up camp there before? Today I was visiting with a friend who is going through a tough time in life. (aren’t we all?!)…And she is just now realizing some things about her life,and as she was opening up to me she said:

“I think I lived my life in la la land.. covered by things like diamonds, a big house, and fancy cars – and now I see the ugly truth.”

My response wasn’t “told you so” it was simply “when you finally open up and see it, that’s where the work begins”.

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You can’t push someone to see what they aren’t willing to see. I know this fact all too well. My fortune cookie today was this: if a man thinks he can – he can. If he thinks he can’t – he can’t. These are inalienable truths. So poetic. It was almost perfectly fitting for today’s conversation with her. So many people are starting to awaken. The blinders are coming off and real life is forcing it’s big-fat-ugly face in the world. And you know what? Good.

Once people can see their ugly truths, they can get closer to accepting it, and change it of they want to. I can only sit and listen to the stories. I can give words of wisdom when I have them, because I know all about that fairtale called la-la land. I had a permanent address there. Little did I know, it was a coping mechanism at the time – and now a teaching tool in the present.

I don’t want to go through life just coping. Chances are you don’t either. God didn’t send Jesus down here so that we could go trudging along down here coping with life as it hits us. No! Open up your eyes! I beg you to pray this prayer, “Lord open my eyes, the eyes within my heart and show me what I need to see. reveal your truth to me”.. I can guarantee that prayer will be easily asked and answered for you. Life has murky waters, and only through Gods grace and mercy do we have the clarity we need at times. so keep your head above the water. Here’s to a life-changing week.

Cherish


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I never really thought of it before. When I was looking for a husband, I didn’t seek Gods advice. I never even thought it mattered much. I had assumed that whosoever walked in my life, and things went well, and he met certain check boxes in my “needs” category – I was good. And that must’ve been a Godsend, right?! Well then… Amen and halelujah!!

NOT!!!

First of all, my first check box now is to make sure he is a godly man. His soul needs to be saved and purified by God. I never really realized that in order for a man to truly give love – they have to have first received love from God himself. You can’t give love if you never knew love – Gods pure love.

Secondly, I will not merely rely on chance meetings and coincidence. I won’t will a relationship to succeed – I will pray it through. I will not pray the same either. I will pray “God, your will be done” and I will not pray “make this happen” “make so-and-so love me.” Those prayers within themselves are foolish.

Thirdly, I will take Gods will for me and compare it to Gods will for them. Is there anything to work with? I mean, If I know God wants me to start a ministry in Minnesota and have 5 children, I certainly wouldn’t persist in seeing a man who is sterile and lives in eastern Asia. I mean, you get the point here.

God is first this time go around. I will treat things differently, especially any man after my heart.

I have no problem waiting for the right man, at the right time, at the right place, and under the right authority.

Amen.

Cherish


John Hagee inspired me with a recent message on television. He said something to this effect: “If you meet someone with a torn and tattered bible, they rarely have a torn and tattered life”.

Well Hagee, I agree. That statement deserved a second chance in the limelight. It’s so true what he said there. If you have battles to fight, I would advise you to fight them on your knees. Every battle I have ever fought that way, I have overcome and have been the victor. So many carry these big bibles with the fancy bible carriers, yet not one single page looks turned, touched or even highlighted. Those people are the hypocrites in the churches. They are the ones that attend service every sunday and dont know why their lives are in shambles. It amazed me the amount of people that grow up in church and never get it. They never accept christ in their lives, or even venture to read the scripture that they have been holding for 15 years. Its like having a rule book for the biggest game of your life, instructions play by play, and supergluing the pages together. How then can you bet on the game? How do you expect to win? You may have the instructions, but you can’t get to them. Hello someone!

The bible is the most magnificent book in the world! You don’t read the book, the book reads you. Its lessons are based on where you are in life and in your heart. It amazes me the same verse days later means something completely different to me than days prior. That book is written and those living words read your heart. Why on earth would you not read it? You can read all those easy-reader-bible books because those are great instructions on HOW to read the bible. But when you really get into the words, they really get into you. They mold you. They seek out the areas in your life you are unsettled in, and they work within to fix it. If you are open to change.

My bible is..ahem.well.. I have 3 bibles. And I would advise this method. My very first bible was highlighted and dog eared like crazy in my younger years. My second bible – barely opened. My 3rd – well, we are working on a Monet masterpiece on every page. I am growing with my bibles. I can look back on the years I had book one, and find out where I was in life by what verses I underlined and pages I marked. I want a bible that I have to tape the pages back together. I want a bible that has blood, sweat and tears on the pages. That is my goal. A torn bible for a torn life. Not a bad trade in my book. Happy Sunday 🙂

Cherish


Come as you are through the brokenness and scars. That is the best way to come to God.

If you know anything about broken bones, you know they can be fixed. When a bone is broken, it usually needs to be put back into place. Most times it’s forcefully, and painfully – though willingfully done. It is a process that must happen to heal. Another thing about a broken bone, when it is put back together, it will rarely ever break in that particular spot again. Medically speaking, when a bone is manipulated back into place – calcifications of bone begin to form, and make that bone 3x stronger than it was before.

Good stuff huh?

Also, with broken bones, though years healed – you can still see the break on X-rays. That break never goes away, though it healed. It marks us. A permanent memory within us. Chances are you remember how you broke it, when you broke it, and where. Gods process for breaking us in spirit is the same.

I want to be broken. I want you to look at me and see the breaks, and flaws in character. Because I do have those wounds. I am not the same. I am stronger now because of the break.

The thing about scars, is the wound heals but the mark is there forever. You will always have that mark on you – and when you look down at that mark may it remind you where you have been. The scars of the spirit act very much the same way. Though healed, they are there forever and you are made worse or better because of them. (the choice is yours)

Well God, I’ve been broken. Then you came and fixed me. I’m not 100 percent what I was before – and for that – I am grateful. I’m 100 percent for you now. And my scars? Oh I see them, I know them. I have my story, and because I look down and see those scars – I remember. I remember the process. I remember what you did for me. I remember how bad it hurt going through that process. But now I only remember the joy after it was all said and done.

Thank you

Cherish


For the first time in a long time I am on my own for the holidays. It’s been totally humbling. You know, when you find yourself by yourself – Just what do you do with yourself?

Funny way of putting it, but for me I’m not much for pity parties. “Woe is me” isn’t my style. Instead, I made this holiday season about other people. Giving. Truly giving for the first time. Not just because I had nothing better to do,and not just because it’s the right thing to do.. But giving because I really wanted to. And let me tell you, it’s been great. I’m starting to do this whole remolding process and carving the details.

I began a meals on wheels route for the holidays. That alone was humbling. Seeing how some people live – then seeing how I live really made me thankful for what I have.

I have to tell you, the first day I pulled up with my meals in tow – driving my bmw up to houses that couldn’t support the roof – I felt so foolish. Maybe it was just me seeing it that way, maybe it was God still breaking me down from my old ways of seeing things. I just got in my car afterwards and wept. I wept because of my self centeredness, my selfishness, my ignorance of the world around me. How unappreciative I had been. It made me so thankful and grateful for everything I have.

Then as I walked up door to door- I broke down again. The hands of the ill that can barely open their door, the wounds of the lonely that have no one to care for them, the family of 8 that lives in one room with a single mattress to sleep on and hardwood floors with no heat.

Humbled. I see what I have. I don’t mean material things or a nice home – though God has blessed me with plenty. What I saw was I have two able hands, two able feet, a mouth that can share kind words and heal the wounded of spirit. I have a smile that can brighten someones day. I can give those gifts freely. It doesn’t cost a thing.

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Be Fishers of Men – Not of Fish (John 21:1-17)

Thank you God for bringing me back

Thank you God for reeling me in

To the sincere appreciation

Of being a true fisher of men

 

You made me thirsty for your flow

You made me hungry for your feast

I am willing and able now

To push onward piece by piece

 

So God I cast my words far off

And you will lead your hungry nearer

The line is baited for all to come

The murky deep – becoming clearer

 

I wait for you from dusk ‘til dawn

I do not tug at my own choice

More nibbles than the one true bite

That makes your heart truly rejoice

 

I know the task set out for me

I wait patiently by the waters bend

Carefully watching you stir your people

Thus I help you reel them in